This morning when I was still half asleep, my beloved cat bit me in the heel and woke me up.
I kicked him hard in the stomach, to my own surprise. But not his. Tim is probably better acquainted to my tempers than myself.
I would often act like an angel at night. I would lean my head towards him and he would lick my forehead and chew my hair. I call it love.
Sometimes we would play cat and dog, me chasing and Tim hiding and crawling back and biting at times. I call it love too.
But there are times when Tim’s bite is not opportune at all, like this morning. So he got a kick in the stomach.
Did he deserve it?
Maybe Tim didn’t even ask himself the question. Animal logic is very simple. “Human beings are always right”.
But human ethic is much more complicated. Was I to blame for kicking my cat and scaring him?
I’m now in the office and start working for the up-coming Halloween promotion. But I find myself regretting what I did to Tim.
Of course I love Tim. He’s much more than a cat. He’s a cat that’s as friendly and playful as a dog. Which makes him more than just my best friend. I admire his beauty. And how he unreservedly shows his emotions when he’s hungry.
Then why did I kick him in the stomach. Hard.
Maybe its because Halloween’s coming. Maybe I’m under some spell. Or maybe some spirit just possesses my mind at times.
Then I got a newsletter from www.audio4fun.com. I’ve subscribed to them for quite a while, since I got interested in a software called AV Voice Changer Software, which morphs your voice to extremes like “robot voice” or “fabulous creatures”.
Now they invite me to join a Phantom Voice Contest. They want me to sing the line “The phantom of the opera is there, inside your mind” and win prizes on the occasion of halloween.
This immediately has a positive effect on me. So I’m not that bad for kicking my poor Tim in the stomach.
I could have been worse. I could have been a haunting phantom voice that insists on seizing someone else soul.
I have to thank www.audio4fun.com for their “weird” products and events so I feel like I’m not alone on the evil side. And those who created Halloween so I have something to blame.
And Tim will get his compensation. I will buy him a live mouse this Halloween.
Maybe I will change my mind. Maybe this article is written under the spell of some “dark force”.
But I just want to drive this point: should you ever find yourself on the evil side, be happy with it.
That would make the matter much simpler.
About author:
Jimmy Tiep is a freelance journalist and copywriter. He writes about sports, ads, human insights, etc… He’s contactable at media@audio4fun.com
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December 27th, 2009 at 9:05 am
Do I have a darker side?
Hi, just something I am hoping to get some answers on,
I’m 21 years old, and never really been in trouble, tried to stay good, as of the last couple of years, I have been having constant thoughts and dreams of fighting, my dreams started out strange, throwing punches and they was really slow not doing any damage, but have been lately much worse, I tend to bite and headbutt, stamp, whatever I can.
These dreams have started to take over in real life, I will quite happily sit for a couple of hours thinking about ways of winning a fight if i was attacked, I never think of starting a fight, it seems to be all to do if I was attacked, I used to do lots of MMA (mixed martial arts) when I was in my teens, but I’m wondering why is this darker side starting to brew up? It just feels like I have a very evil person inside just waiting to be released
I asked a good friend of mine and he suggested maybe I was just a very strategic person
In real life i’m not violent, I only fight when I need to, but these thoughts and dreams keep coming back.
Anyway, any suggestions would be great
Thanks
December 27th, 2009 at 2:07 pm
Im exactly the same, very non violent -but sometimes have violent dreams – I look on it as my mind and body getting rid of violent tendencies when im asleep and where I cant hurt anyone.
So I think thats great – what not to do is repress them, just let them occur and wake up happy that its
only a stress reliever and no-one is hurt.
If you have them in waking hours thats different.
You martial arts are tending to make you more confident and able to take care of yourself, hopefully your teachers will see that you will never get to thinking you can beat anyone up without getting hit
yourself.
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December 27th, 2009 at 2:09 pm
I wouldn’t take these thoughts/dreams seriously. A lot of people have fantasies unfamiliar to their real selves. Like you said, you are not a violent person, and as long as you restrain from inflicting harm on others, you should be fine. If it comes to the point where all you want to do is fight, that’s when you should be concerned.
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December 27th, 2009 at 2:11 pm
well if all you want to do is slam gates and let down tires then i would say it’s bad but hey we are 21 years old. sometimes we just want to hit someone because we want to take all the anger from life and place it on someone else. that’s why you never start the fight
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December 27th, 2009 at 2:14 pm
You just crave stimulation, that’s all.
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December 27th, 2009 at 2:16 pm
Actually everyone has a dark side. "How are we gonna control it?" Maybe you should try medicating or going to a spar to relex and maybe those dreams will go away… Just try to calm down when you have those violent thoughts.
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December 27th, 2009 at 2:18 pm
That sounds pretty normal. Fantasizing about fighting is something that might make you feel in control. It also sounds like you somehow feel inadequate because at first your punches have no impact, and then you have to resort to desperate tactics to defeat your opponent. Do you feel you are "not good enough" in any part of your life?
If you feel it is really a problem in your life, you might want to find a good therapist (Not that you are messed up, just might be better talking to someone face to face than over the internet.)
But yeah, there is a whole concept in Jungian psychology called "The Shadow," which basically proposes that everyone has a dark side. You can google it, and in the mean time, enjoy this video, hopefully its your cup of tea
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCqDReW8f_s
Cheers!
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December 27th, 2009 at 2:20 pm
I could imagine killing and not feeling any remorse.
We all have a dark side i think its perfectly normal
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